roller coastering in 2014…

Happy December…hope you had a nice Christmas! I had a lot of fun family time, and just got back from my hometown when I thought…hmmm, didn’t I used to blog? Don’t worry, you didn’t miss much over the last month or so. But on that note, sit back and relax as I think and remember out loud…

I was starting to feel semi-productive after a long and lazy day. Laundry was happening as the washing machine whistled while my clothes spun themselves clean. I was all snuggled up on the couch, warm in my pajamas and even extra warm with the addition of a long, fuzzy robe. I was at my parents’ house. It was 5:50 pm. On Saturday night. The pathetic-ness of this pathetic scenario got me laughing. I probably should have been crying…but all I could do was laugh.

With a new year only days away, I thought to myself this is appropriate. Don’t get me wrong…I love hanging out with my parents a lot. But it got me thinking about this past year, and life in general.

2014 was another proverbial roller coaster year…sometimes I was going so fast I couldn’t breathe; sometimes I was laughing so hard I didn’t want the moment to end; sometimes I was screaming at the top of my lungs, “let me off – I’m ready for a new ride (year)!”; sometimes I was laughing and screaming and crying all at the same time; and sometimes I was just plain dizzy and confused, wondering “OK…where am I? where am I going? what’s next?”.

It seems customary that the end of one year and the beginning of another year always bring about a flurry of feelings and an entourage of emotions. Did I do everything I wanted to this year? Will next year be better? It’s natural to think this way, because a new year can mean a new me. Who I used to be is so different from who I am; but who I am is not quite who I want to be…in other words, I’m always ready for that blank page; that clean canvas; that fresh start. Of course, every day is a new day, no matter what the calendar says.

I talked a little bit last year about how some people choose a word to be their word for the year – like grace or balance or create. I could never choose a word, and I still won’t. But I do want action and I do want change. I am an eternal dreamer who is ready to stop dreaming and start doing. I think. That is the hard part…but if I remember progress, not perfection, than each step is a step closer to making those dreams come true.

I’m not a “resolution” kind of gal. Come January 1st, you won’t hear me saying, “no more this (like sugar), and no more that (like Instagram); more of this (like exercising), and more of that (like crafting).” BUT, I do fall prey to challenges, which could be good…or bad. This is where my all or nothing personality gets me in trouble, and that is something I need to work on…I don’t know the meaning of moderation! A challenge with co-workers last month had me exercising so much, I was sleeping with my pedometer (thankfully I wasn’t the only one); and I was taking spinning classes 4-5 times a week. I spinned? span? spun? my little heart out. Today, good luck getting me off of that couch; and really good look getting that piece of cake out of my hand! Grrrrr….

Another thing I need to work on is my grass. From where I stand, everybody else’s grass is soooo much greener. But at the end of the day, I need to remember…life is just too short. And I need to remember and appreciate all of the blessings that I do have.

Oh how I would love to blog more often. I give a big shout out to those who do so consistently. I love my little blog and sharing pieces of my heart with you. I love the creating and the writing and the picture-taking and the interaction. For something that I enjoy doing so much, I must find a way to do it more! Last February, when I did this challenge, I was blogging, cooking, working, and exercising practically every day. A challenge cannot be the only way I do things…it just can’t!

Then there’s the elephant on the blog that begs the question of why a seemingly normal, obviously funny, obviously not humble girl like me is doing laundry on a Saturday night instead of say…something, anything else? Ya…some elephants will just have to wait till next year before I can deal with them!

Old year, new year…whatever. It doesn’t matter whether the train has left the station; or if that ship has sailed; or if opportunity knocked and I missed it. Today is a new day. And there will always be another train, another ship and another opportunity.

I know…random, all over the place post. But wait…I’m going to get all quote-y now. These are just a few quotes I want to keep in my back pocket as we enter a new year.

  • There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind. C.S. Lewis 
  • Be yourself. Everyone else is taken. Oscar Wilde
  • Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game. Babe Ruth
  • Worrying is like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do, but doesn’t get you anywhere. Anonymous
  • Humility is not thinking less of yourself, it’s thinking of yourself less. C.S. Lewis
  • Comparison is the thief of joy. Theodore Roosevelt
  • I must have flowers, always and always. Claude Monet
  • To live would be an awfully big adventure. J.M. Barrie
  • There are always flowers for those who want to see them. Henri Matisse
  • The secret of getting ahead is getting started. Mark Twain
  • Integrity is doing the right thing even when no one is watching. C.S. Lewis
  • It’s impossible, said pride. It’s risky, said experience. It’s pointless, said reason. Give it a try, whispered the heart. Unknown
  • Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover. Mark Twain

And in case you were wondering, that Saturday night mentioned above wasn’t as pathetic as it sounded. After all, it ended with a Hallmark channel movie marathon. Oh wait…

And sorry there are no pictures to accompany this post…but pictures of me in my pajamas doing laundry on a Saturday night would just be, well…pa-the-tic.

But hop on over to Steller and check out my 5 memorable moments of 2014. 4 of them I blogged about here and here and here and here!

Happy happy new year…I hope 2015 is the best year ever for you!

lilly.ai

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